hoods and heat

have you ever
walked along the sidewalk
early
on a very cold morning
walking
hunched over with
hands in pockets, hood over your head
watching the streetlights
that still havent turned off
listening for the hum
in the distance
of cars bustling people
while it is quieter
around you
not so far away
so many people
are awake and alive
and you can still hear crickets
and feel the crunching leaves
beneath your feet
seeing your breath
even though
it doesnt
and it never did
feel right
feel like your own
it seems
like you can feel
every cell in your body
feel your mind
thump against your skull
wanting to get out
even though it knows
that would kill you
those mornings
make me think