Galaxy Canvas

i have a girlfriend.
and let me tell you
she is one of the greatest human beings
in the entire world.
i don't see what makes me different.
im in love
with a girl whose eyes
remind me that we are two
in millions of galaxies
and whose hand in mine
brings me home
and holds me together.
i don't need
your red eyes
focused on what i am.
i am a speck
of dust in the
infinite void
that is the universe
and maybe
that's a bit morbid
but i don't think
these "problems"
you think we are facing
are very important
when others happiness
means nothing
to yours
what you should be focused on
is your own insides
tune yourself in
to the world around you
and shake the dust off the looking glass
that is your soul.
the world is art
and your life
a canvas
why waste it
painting in your own blood
black as the night sky
to cause more of an uprising
in the minds of others?
fix it
and be happy.

one day
i can only hope
that i will forgive myself
for what ive done.
one day
maybe sooner
i will wake up beside you
and everything will feel okay
ill feel your heart beat close to mine
and we will be calm
and my mistakes
will be nothing
but dust
and you will see yourself
through my eyes
and we will be home.

what i believed

for the longest time,
i thought love was for the ignorant.
people void of feeling
aching to find someone to play this ridiculous game with.
i thought the L was for lies,
i thought the O was for out of my mind.
and maybe its true.
i thought love was for anyone but me.
i thought it was for strangers
people who refuse to understand
and only within myself
when i think about the vastness of the world.
but you
you brought it out of me.
you taught me that the V was for velocity
or the speed at which my heart races when i think about you.
how fast my mouth curls into a smile without even thinking about it.
and i cant help but wonder
how its possible
that someone could be so beautiful
inside and out
could be blind to their own incredible mind.
how could anyone ever ignore every piece of you
when i cant stop thinking about it?
you are full of mystery
and maybe thats too much
but the thought of how far away you are right now
hurts so bad
and its hard to ignore
and hard to hold back emotions.
halfway across the world
and you still have me going crazy.
i wish i could see the fireworks with you by my side.
i wish i could watch the sunset i missed
with you in my arms,
i wish i could experience the world
with you, your hand in mine.
maybe im setting myself up for heartbreak.
but in this moment
i couldnt care less
because you make me feel alive
and maybe the E stands for something more than i can believe
something beyond my intelligence.
im trying to understand this life
and it has gotten so frustrating
but if i have you
i cant see any reason to give up.
with you in my life
everything has changed
i feel alive
my veins are filled with fireworks
and i dont know if its the caffeine in my veins
or the way you make me feel
but my heart wont stop racing
with the thought of you.
one day i might figure you out,
and one day you might understand me.
but just know that you have made my life so much better
and now i dont know what to do with it
other than spend it with you.

darling, tonight i will be lulled to sleep
by the rising and falling of the waves.
they taught me how to
hold you
so that we will feel as one.
the moon above
shines upon stars like fireflies in the night.
it is a good teacher
it shows me where to go
how to put my faith in the universe
and hold your heart
close to mine.
dont miss me too much.
we are under the same sky.

they swore we'd die without it
or was it another cheap scam
to get us to give up our souls

their name was terror
but all i saw was their eyes
changing like the tides
a peaceful night on the ocean
turned white with the moon
and all that was left
was the flickers of life like fireflies
stars in the water

i swear one day i might see myself in those waters
but for now im better off just watching