my body

my hands speak life.
my arms reach for something lost.
my chest heaves with each breath i take.
my legs attempt to run away from the fear.
my feet know the legs are liars.
my head looks pained.
my heart says, hold on.
my heart says, wait.
my heart says, i don't know.
my bones shiver.
my brain says i don't belong here.
my brain says get away from here.
my brain says it is too scary.
my brain says let go.
my eyes look for beauty.
my eyes turn up empty.
my ears scan for hope.
my ears come up empty.
my muscles refuse to move.
my heart says, get up.
my brain says, lay there a while.
my soul says, i don't know what to do.