mother

my mom 
gets really weird
when we talk about
my head.

sometimes,
she doesnt shut up.
i guess my silence
pisses her off.

sometimes,
she stares at me
and squints
and asks
"are you having
an episode?"

well,
mom,
you wonder why
i dont want
to talk to you about
this stuff.

you get angry with
me when i can't
form words
to explain my pain
this shit
attacks me
how well do
you think someone
could explain
getting mugged
immediately
after getting beat up?

right,
it'd be hard.

so you sympathize
with physical pain
but not your
own daughter's
emotional, mental beatings?

thanks, mom.
thanks for trying to understand.
you don't know anything.